first date.

22 december was my historical day. it was my first date with someone who i've been texted to recently.
for me, this is my first date. not just a first date with him, but also a first date with a guy, a man.

we've been texting for about a week. the day he asked me out, i was freaking out.
yeah, gw norak krn ga pernah ngedate sebelumnya.
we decided to meet up at mall central park at 4pm.

gw sampe duluan, and believe me, my heart can't stop beating and my hands are sweating.
yup, gw super nervous!!
dia langsung sms gw begitu udh sampe, dan gw bilang klo gw tunggu di pohon natal.
and of coarse, dia ga tau gw yg mana, he called me dan gw langsung tau which one he is.
we shook hand and went to starbucks. he paid for my hot chocolate.

i remembered when he asked me, 'suka minum kopi?'
i said, 'ga juga, jarang-jarang kok..'
and he answered, 'iya sih, kebanyakan minum kopi bisa bikin dehidrasi'

i laughed. isn't that cute?

then, we decided to watch movie, Billionaire.
he paid for it again.

while waiting for the movie started, we went eating.
i choose the cheap food because i'm afraid that he will pay for it again. and he did.

because that was the first time for me, i was so quiet.
i'm too afraid if i said something wrong or stupid.
but that day was too perfect for me.

he said, 'thanks yah buat waktunya, udh mau jalan sama gw..'
even after i went home, he texted me.

i never been happier than that day.
when we were looking at each other eyes.
when he nervous and me too.
the way he tried to talk to me while watching.

but, i'm afraid of one thing, will everything will be the same after the meeting?

he didn't text me on 23 and 24.
i texted him first on 25, saying merry christmas.
and there's no text from him on 26.
but he did text me on 27, he didn't reply me last text.
on 28 and today, i dont receive any text.

this is what i'm afraid about.
when someone gives me too much hope and i'm hoping too much from that hope.
all that i get is just an empty hope.

is he giving me an empty hope just like the others do?

i think i kinda like him.
and i pray everyday, wish that he could be the one.
i hope so...