Mr. Bakpao

had my second date with him last night.
i have to admit, at first i'm not that excited.
i do want to meet him again, but i don't have the heart-goes-boom-boom feeling.

sebelum ketemu dia, gw pergi ke belitung liburan sama temen-temen,
dia juga ke cirebon pergi ama temennya, so we decided to meet each other after the vacation.
yes, i do thinking about him while vacationing, even buy him oleh-oleh khas belitung without hoping that he would buy something for me from cirebon.

until we decided to met yesterday.
as usual, i'm being myself again.
i wearing glasses instead contact lens.
gw ga pernah se simple ini ketika akan ngedate.

there we go,
we met at central park, and i brought my snacks for him.
he asked, ''what's that?"
and i said, "for you, from belitung."
then he gave me something from cirebon.
emang dasar cowo ga bisa milih oleh-oleh, i take a look and laughed inside. because this is something that i will not buy. hahaha. he gave me this sweet snack that turns out to be very sour, and a big bottle of syrup.

so we had dinner, i open the snack, he tried and i tried, and we both don't like it hahahahaha.
i was laughing out loud, and i just looked clearly at the syrup this morning. ini sirup mah di tanah abang juga jual, gw sering banget minum nih sirup waktu kecil LOL.
it's his effort that i appreciate, he even use a nice plastic bag to give the things to me, bahkan gw cuma pake kantong kresek biasa hahahahaha.

mungkin gw ga ada perasaan deg-degan atau kupu-kupu di perut sebelum ketemu dia,
tapi pasca ketemu, gw seneng. i even just realized that i sing a lot on the way to the office.
gw bawa oleh-oleh dia ke kantor, dimana gw bisa cemilin pas ngantuk karena asemnya bukan main,
dan sirup yang bisa gw minum klo kepanasan, dan lagi gw bisa bagi-bagi.
and the nice plastic bag? of course i will keep it.

but now, i have some concerned.
he is a social smoker.
he always around beautiful girls.
he follows a lot of girls in social media.
he posted some pictures with girls too.
he is also a social drinker.

but he is also a funny person,
and i believe he has a good heart.
but i dont want to take the risk, still too afraid what will come to me.
gw udah cukup trauma and i dont want that happen to me again.

yeah, dia belum jadi bagian hidup gw, dan gw belum ngerasain yang gimana-gimana sama dia.
masih super biasa.
but if this is continue, i want to make sure, like really sure before i made the decision.

Hey, you ! :)

So I finally met him yesterday..
super random dan bener-bener ga direncanain.
i've been chatting with this guy and always makes me smile whenever i read his story.
a fun and tolerably clumsy person, also seems to be mature and family person.
never met him, but i feel like he's a very nice person.
and also, i've stalked him like a FBI!!
from the very first day we talked, until today! really want to know what kind of person he is, and that's why i'm not scare when we met.

the way we meet is like no plan at all.
kita chatting biasa pas gw lagi kerja, tiba-tiba dia bilang mau nganter nyokapnya di daerah deket kantor gw.
then, dia bilang mau makan soto yg tinggal ngesot doang dari kantor.
gw tanya makan sama siapa, dia bilang alone and ask me if i want to join him or not..
FYI, gw di kantor super lancai. i wasn't wearing my best clothes, plain face.
but i still said yes!
who cares.
i think, let me be myself this time, where i dont give too much effort just to meet a stranger guy, not even a feel butterflies-in-my-stomach thing.
but to be honest, i'm super excited to meet him.

so i walked to the soto place, i thought he will be waiting in his car or already went inside waiting.
but he was standing in front of the place waiting for me. that give him a point plus.
we ordered the food and sat down, and i can clearly see his face.
not my type at all, but there's something interesting about him, and i cannot explain what it is.
he's so expressive, laugh a lot, and also the one who do the talking.
i usually very quite when i met someone new.
but with this guy, i feel different. and i thought, this is a good start.

i know, i have to learn from the past.
i just know him for 2 weeks from chat, and just met him once yesterday.
i can't put too much hope on him, because he's maybe just being kind.
or don't have any interest in me.
so what i'm doing right now, just see the progress.

I hope so.