Mr. Bakpao

had my second date with him last night.
i have to admit, at first i'm not that excited.
i do want to meet him again, but i don't have the heart-goes-boom-boom feeling.

sebelum ketemu dia, gw pergi ke belitung liburan sama temen-temen,
dia juga ke cirebon pergi ama temennya, so we decided to meet each other after the vacation.
yes, i do thinking about him while vacationing, even buy him oleh-oleh khas belitung without hoping that he would buy something for me from cirebon.

until we decided to met yesterday.
as usual, i'm being myself again.
i wearing glasses instead contact lens.
gw ga pernah se simple ini ketika akan ngedate.

there we go,
we met at central park, and i brought my snacks for him.
he asked, ''what's that?"
and i said, "for you, from belitung."
then he gave me something from cirebon.
emang dasar cowo ga bisa milih oleh-oleh, i take a look and laughed inside. because this is something that i will not buy. hahaha. he gave me this sweet snack that turns out to be very sour, and a big bottle of syrup.

so we had dinner, i open the snack, he tried and i tried, and we both don't like it hahahahaha.
i was laughing out loud, and i just looked clearly at the syrup this morning. ini sirup mah di tanah abang juga jual, gw sering banget minum nih sirup waktu kecil LOL.
it's his effort that i appreciate, he even use a nice plastic bag to give the things to me, bahkan gw cuma pake kantong kresek biasa hahahahaha.

mungkin gw ga ada perasaan deg-degan atau kupu-kupu di perut sebelum ketemu dia,
tapi pasca ketemu, gw seneng. i even just realized that i sing a lot on the way to the office.
gw bawa oleh-oleh dia ke kantor, dimana gw bisa cemilin pas ngantuk karena asemnya bukan main,
dan sirup yang bisa gw minum klo kepanasan, dan lagi gw bisa bagi-bagi.
and the nice plastic bag? of course i will keep it.

but now, i have some concerned.
he is a social smoker.
he always around beautiful girls.
he follows a lot of girls in social media.
he posted some pictures with girls too.
he is also a social drinker.

but he is also a funny person,
and i believe he has a good heart.
but i dont want to take the risk, still too afraid what will come to me.
gw udah cukup trauma and i dont want that happen to me again.

yeah, dia belum jadi bagian hidup gw, dan gw belum ngerasain yang gimana-gimana sama dia.
masih super biasa.
but if this is continue, i want to make sure, like really sure before i made the decision.