Lucky?

do you ever feel so hard to forget about someone?
do you ever feel so hard to forgive someone?

yesterday, 23th of march 2013.
i was hanging out with my high school friends at PIK (pantai indah kapuk)
when suddenly one of my friend that her uni friend is there too, karaoke-ing.
i doon't feel anything so i asked her whether she want to meet her friends or not.
she said no. and after that we went home.

pas di jalan, tiba2 temen2 gw teriak. "WOW si itu td ada di pik!!"
anyway, si itu adalah org terakhir yg membuat gw patah hati.

i really don't know what i've to say but i thanked God for that.
if we met yesterday, gw serius ga tau apa yg bakal terjadi.
apakah gw akan meledak ledak?
apakah gw akan nangis?
gw ga tau.

tapi di satu sisi, gw pingin ketemu dia
setelah kejadian itu, gw sama sekali belum lihat muka dia lagi.
i really want to see him but my brain said no.
dia disana juga sama ceweknya.
i regret and feel lucky at the same time.

my friend said that he's too afraid to see me.
i don't know if he's afraid because he felt guilty for what he had done to me, or he's afraid if his girlfriend would finds out.
i think he's a coward, a chicken.

am i already over him?
me, myself still don't know the answer.
i know it needs time, but i dont know for how long.